Assalam anak2ku.
Harini tajuk tu menggambarkan keadaan bapak harini.
Kalau dlm bahasa inggerisnya bapak skrg tgh, shivering.
Sebab? Kemungkinan besar sebab cuaca sejuk skrg kat kampus.
Semalam hujan, so pagi ni sejuk sangat2.
Tapi, tadi bangun amek wuduk subuh tak sejuk pun.
Bapak sebenarnya tiba2 shivering ni sebab terbaca forum discussion kelas management bapak.
Taktau la sebab marah ka, malu ka, ego ka, sedih ka apa.
Mungkin jugak disebabkan perasaan bercampur aduk, ditambah lagi dgn pagi yang sejuk ni.
Adala topik2 yg dibukak untuk student menjawab soalan berdasarkan pengalaman.
Dan bapak harini terbaca reply 'kawan' bapak kat topik tu.
Ada dua topik yang menyebabkan getaran ni.
Hangpa baca sendiri la bapak buat direct quotation kat bawah.
Btw, 'kawan' ni merujuk kpd 'xoxo'
Soalan topik:
"What is referent power? Describe a leader in an organization with which you are familiar who has referent power."
Reply'nya':
"Referent power is individual power that being respect by society, use power wisely and balance.
For me, this kind of leader I can see our previous chairman in our society. He has many good thing that can be learnt from him although he was senior, but he treat us like more than friends and care.(1) Not like people that I meet or just discovered recently. We thought he will be good in leading because he will volunteer himself to be leader, but finally he misuse his own power that given to him.(2) He treats his own friend like 'rubbish'. When his friend needs him, he will not around and pretend that 'luckily I'm not at their place'.(3)
Luckily he is not our chairman,(4) but for current chairman, I think he has referent power because he will always with his friends when people needs him. For sure, he will be good leader in future. GO CURRENT PRESIDENT COSMIT!!! (sorry for out of topic..)"
Comment:
1.I'm sorry I can't copy or duplicate myself to be exactly or at least a little like our previous chairman.
For I am who I am, and I am clearly not experienced enough to deal with people.
2.I'm sorry again, because you didn't know that day I didn't want to even volunteer myself to be a leader.
I wanted to enjoy the day more as a normal participant. But my feelings were pushed aside by others in my group, pushed aside so that I become the leader instead of them.
3.I'm sorry I didn't know when people need me, because all the while I see is that I need people to understand my feelings for just one time. And I'm not lucky to not be in your place, I'm 'lucky' that I have friends or people that pushed me infront to be their leader instead.
4.Luckily I didn't want to be the chairman anymore since the 'bean incident'. You remember that don't you? I even said it right infront of you. You even accompanied me to have a talk with our previous chairman didn't you? But, of course you wouldn't be reading this.
Soalan topik :
"Equity theory focuses on an individual's feeling about how he or she is treated in comparisons with others. Describe a situation in which you compared your contribution and rewards with others. Were you treated fairly? Did the outcome of this incident affect your level of motivation in regard to that situation or organization? "
Reply'nya':
"The feeling of an individual being treated like that is very awful. It will affect internal feeling not only level of motivation, but more than that..
Here is the situation that maybe happens in real life. I'm joining a group project that consists of 3-4 members in a team. But I'm done a lot of work or contribute to the team so our mission is succeed. But what happens is one of the members get the name because he/she is liked by lectures.(1)
Maybe he/she done some efforts, but comparing to other team members, it is unfair that only his/her name being mention that because of his/her background achievement, people believes that maybe he/she makes the team succeed.(2) When the other members is working, he/she wasn't around or doing the other things that irrelevant. It's like a he/she always want to win in any place. If the other members get higher achievement than that person, this person will argue until fullfill his/her needs.(3) For other team members, it is totally unfair like the phrase: Milk belongs to the cow, but the bull cow gets the name or Someone else being credit for your efforts.
I'm strongly agree that level of motivation is needed regarding this kind of situation because it affect our own level of motivation. As for me, I will totally fade up or feeling down because of that. But I will try my best to avoid being involve in this situation again or not working with this kind of person again. (4)
"
Comment:
Well, maybe this post is not entirely directing at me.
Maybe. Who knows?
1.IF, you're referring to me, and by any chance, referring to the ICPC or even last semester's java project, then I'm sorry that I don't have control over whoever the lecturer's gonna praise or give credits to. And yes, you did more work than me, and if you can still remember, I did tell you so right in your face. Thank you. Very very much.
2.IF, again, you're referring to me, I'm sorry again, it's 'people'- they're always like that-, I don't have a say.
Background achievement? I suppose you're also included in the group who have always yelled in class about me being DL. How am I supposed to avoid being recognized then?
3.IF, you're referring to me, I'm sorry if I ever done so, to you or to anyone else, and I'm sorry for trying to get the lecturers clarify where did I lose my marks by comparing with others.
4. Me too =D
Anak2, belajaq bahasa inggeris pandai2, baru baca post yang ni.
Banyak kata2 sinis dalam post ni.
Sumpah, bapak ingat dia dah ok dah dgn bapak.
Tapi, takleh nak buat apa la, bapak nampak dah hakikat ni depan mata.
Hangpa tolong faham betul2 apa maksud bapak dengan entri ni.
Kalau tak paham, panggil bapak explain secara lisan masa hangpa baca ni.
Bapak takmau anak2 bapak lalu benda ni lepas tu taktau nak buat apa.
Nak halang hangpa drpd lalu benda2 ni memang takleh, sebab tu kitaran dunia.
Semua orang kena lalui benda yang hampir sama.
Bapak risau jugak hangpa buat benda2 bodoh bila hangpa rasa apa yang bapak rasa skrg ni.
Istighfar, ingat tuhan selalu anak2.
Kepada xoxo, terima kasih atas segala budi baikmu terhadapku selama ini.
Aku janji akan cuba yang terbaik tak melibatkanmu dalam aktiviti harian hidupku.
Aku akan sentiasa mengenang dirimu sebagai seorang kawan baik yang banyak membantu aku melihat diri dari perspektif orang luar.
Really, you were one of my best friend.
It's sad to know that you held such a thing against me.
For you to think that I've treated my friends like 'rubbish', I must've really hurt you.
I'm sorry again, sincerely.
So, yeah, I guess this is our 'farewell' even though we'll definitely have to face each other everyday, like we always do.
Now, I think I'm shivering because I'm feeling utterly crushed to have to face things like losing a friend.
And I'm still shivering.
That's all for now my darlings.
Assalam.
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